David Bowie - Strange Fascination 1974-09-05 Bootleg

Hello out there.
It's awfy quiet. Contrasting the noise inside my head, caused by the need to reduce the dose of steroids I have been taking for about 13 years. These things are fucking terrible. You don't notice it when you go on them of course, in fact they seem like some kind of miracle drug! Pretty soon after you start taking them, in my case at least, but generally, for most illnesses that respond to them, this is what happens...you go from feeling very weak, being sick and unable to eat to feeling full of energy(!) full of the joys of life(!!) and the great thing for a Crohns diseaser is that you cultivate this amazingly ravenous appetite. It is like having the munchies every waking moment for a few years!!!
If you know anything about life by now my friend you will realise already that things come at a price.
Is there such a thing as a 'miracle' drug?
I can tell you the answer is no.
You see, the magical steroid health is only a temporary help. It is a temporary 'solution' to your ill health.
Without going into it too much, let me simplify it:
Steroids reduce inflammation. Inflammation is a process that is involved in many diseases from a simple cold to HIV. These particular steroids (hydrocortisone) can reduce inflammation in so many areas of the body and in so many illnesses, they are used a lot and can seem like a cure-all at times.
Alas, they are not a light substance to ingest so much. your body produces it's own amount of this hormone (hydrocortisone) every day. You need it to live. When you get stressed, excited, scared, emotional and even just when you are walking, talking and doing your usual shit (pardon my technical jargon here, you may have to use wikipedia)you NEED this stuff. Generally, a persons body will be producing the amount they require. That's how it goes.
This isn't really the place to go right into the workings of it so let me cut to the chase..
When you are taking steroids for inflammation, you need a dose that is much higher than your body would ever produce. you take this high amount every day until your body is used to the higher level. also your body will pretty much give up and eventually stop producing any of its own, due to the fact that it is getting enough already.
This is where the problem is when you come off the shit.
Steroids also bring side effects. Shitty effects that you don't want but are guaranteed to get if you continue to go along the steroid road of fake pseudo-health and hyperactivity(!!). These are too many to list but include cataracts and diabetes as well as Osteoporosis which I already have due to them.
So I must try to reduce or come off of them altogether. The problem is that my body has almost forgotten how to produce its own and wow ... does it make me feel like shit. Talk about feeling weird. This is worse than tripping on mushrooms sometimes I swear! (I mean a bad trip, obviously)
I'm sure this diatribe will speak for itself (was that an unintentional pun-joke there...? Oh I'm probably the only one that got it so fuck it...forget it) but, just in case you didn't grasp it, it's weirdness all around. Fleeting thoughts that disappear before you grab the thread...flickering sight, things look warped and then suddenly snap back to their usual state. As you go into more days of reduction you sweat. Lots. You sit on the sofa to watch TV and you feel sweat running down your temples...then your neck is soaked and you realise just how much its making you sweat. Shaking! I never had the shakes so much in my life. Nervousness is another thing. Really nervy..
This is going to be a long haul too. I feel a wreck already to tell the truth. Fuck this and the horse it rode in on. Oh yeah, that was me.
I chose to keep taking them over the years but hey, when faced with the gut-fucking-body-wrenching alternative then who wouldn't eh?
It is only now that I am reducing them I realise just how steroid-soaked my existence is/has been.
It is highly time to get back to reality FFS!
I am so eager I almost did myself an injury by reducing them too fast. I just want to get through it to the other side. I'm on 15mg and I am to reduce by 1mg every two weeks ONLY if it feels OK. well, in the first week I reduced it 3mg.
Yeah I'm fucking hurting now. It's the end of week two.
Urgh...! I will wait a week before doing anything now.
If I make it. Heh.
I know though, its no joke.
You really can get sick if you reduce them too fast on account of your inability to make your own supply. so you can faint, fit, go into a coma and erm die if you were faced with a lack of steroid when you needed it.
Best to do it slowly then like they say. Balls.
Am I making your day go in a generally positive direction so far?
Great. :)

Welcome.
You made it through all of that so I mean it, well done.

Today is Bowie.
Ground Control to Major Tom...



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